that's the rocking chair that I used to sit in when I was but 2 years old watching my then favorite movies of all time, never ending story and the adventures of Natty Gan. The first one had a flying Dog, and the second is about a girl who takes off across the country searching for I think her father with her best friend, a WOLF.


I could sit cross legged in that chair with plenty of extra room. and my mom made the afgan on it- that blanket and chair are older than me!


sometimes i really don't know what i'm going to do with myself.
sometimes i feel like i can do anything in the world and then all i want to do is crawl into bed and hide from the world.

dreaming is risky.

but... life would be boring without
it's better to try and fail than to never do anything at all.

failing sucks. oh well here i go.

Happy Thanksgiving ya'll. you all.

I'm thankful for a lot of things in my life, i guess even for the blessing to be breathing, walking and singing. I do enjoy those three things very much.

For my diverse and crazy family.

Selah, the dog.

sunshine.

rainy clouds.

birds singing.

and many more things, and i know that when we are blessed and have much it's important we give to the needy and take care of people who have not. that's really been on my mind... did you know that only 8% of the population of the whole earth have cars. or is it 2%, i dont' know, something crazy like that.

other people outside of western culture living think if you have a car you are RICH.

i want to be apart of it, bringing awareness and moving people to action.

i can think about something all i want but unless i take action, it really doesn't matter.

you know, sometimes i think i like being sad. some days i just wake up and feel so down and out. and although it sucks, at the same i revel in it and feel it to the most.

plus i now have hope so i know the sadness doesn't last forever and sometimes i just have to wait it out.

i do seem to write good songs when i feel this way.

i don't feel that way today, right now, but i was just thinking about it. but...
you never know.

my friend says i'm like the weather, we change so quickly and we're predictable but not at all.

today is my birthday.

happy birthday to me.

yay.

i guess.

I painted today, a girl's face. It's not done.



My birthday, it's on Tuesday the twenty fifth of November... today my friends and I had some birthday sushi and I got my favorite, Waikiki: salmon, yellowtail, avocado, unagi, smelt wrapped in rice and nori. mmm. a year ago I wouldn't have touched the stuff.

Whenever I go on walks, these poems and rhymes come to my mind. I think i'll bring a recorder next time. When the sun is shining and the rain is breaking I go into the forest and listen.

I usually do this, you know where you start doing something and consistently, like blogging, and then you stop for a very long time and then come back to it every once in awhile. I don't really like to talk too much in person so I don't know why I ever thought I would blog all the time. I'm kinda tired. I have to work at 6am tomorrow morning. I found a girl, she plays piano flute and mandolin, I'm teaching her guitar and I'm sure she could play anything she gets her hands on. We're performing my songs on dec 13th, a sort of special christmas concert. We're gonna totally deck the halls but not really. I might even have a man play trumpet for me. I think it will be fun.